i went to UP today with dana and maui. it's their registration week and everyone was busy getting slots for the subjects they want. as i was there sitting at the side of palma hall, i observed the people and the activities they do. "this is the real college life!," i said to myself. this is one thing i won't experience. life in enderun is like high school..only less strict. i envy the students in UP because they get to be really independent. the atmosphere in the area is very refreshing. i really enjoyed the smell of rain because it was so fresh. all the students wore simple clothing...most of them wearing flip flops. i may not seem the person who would enjoy such stuff but i would gladly want to experience things like these...especially commuting, eventhough i don't want to. walking around the campus is nice too. nature is everywhere and UP is a place where the environment really matters. how i wish i could see lots of trees and grasses in my school.. but all i can see are just cars and buildings. i'm missing the type of college life i dreamed when i was still in elementary and high school. people are just so free. free to express anything. free to do whatever they want without anyone judging them. it doesn't matter i stand for eight hours to register...or walk going to my next class..or commute...or even eating dirty foods...as long as i get to experience the real college life to express anything i wish...and of course have teachers that are worth it!
Signing off, kathy.
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Love Arm'd
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
「 bouncing away 6:45 PM 」
Love Arm'd
by Aphra Behn
Love in Fantastique Triumph satt,
Whilst bleeding Hearts around him flow'd,
For whom Fresh pains he did create,
And strange Tyranic power he show'd;
From thy Bright Eyes he took his fire,
Which round about, in sport he hurl'd;
But 'twas from mine he took desire,
Enough to undo the Amorous World.
From me he took his sighs and tears,
From thee his Pride and Crueltie;
From me his Languishments and Feares,
And every Killing Dart from thee;
Thus thou and I,
the God have arm'd,
And sett him up a Deity;
But my poor Heart alone is harm'd,
Whilst thine the Victor is, and free.
Signing off, kathy.
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Blind
"Blind"
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
---> this song brings back such painful memories...memories i cannot let go... <--